My Journal 2-14-2017: Highs and Lows

Each day is a mix of highs and lows. Spanish coursework day 2 was much less stressful than day 1, but leaving school and trying to interact with anyone else other than my professor and classmates makes it difficult to stay positive. I still have so much to learn. Coming back to the house, I’m not always sure what to do with myself: Study? Write? Travel plan? Explore? I find myself in fear (mild, but there nonetheless) of going out exploring too much. I’m worried about my stuff getting stolen, not knowing where to go or how to interact with people.

I know I need to endure. The fear of the unknown will subside with time and continued exposure to a new place, culture, and just generally being a foreigner. Personal growth begins where your comfort level or comfort zone ends. I’m not doing this exclusively to be a blogger/digital nomad, it’s also to see the world, to explore, to strive for a different and fulfilling way of life for myself. Had I stayed in my comfort zone, I would have stayed in Boston instead of going to FL as a kid, I would’ve gotten a job in NY or Boston for an insurance company, and had a safe, secure, regular existence. So at least I’m having a litle bit of a tough time in a new place while expanding my horizons, skill set, and comfort zone, rather than secure and wistful of what adventures could have been.